잘못 배달된 화물
때때로 인생이란 잘못 배달된 화물
몸이란 봉인된 화물
내 몸 속에 펼쳐지지 않은 한 권의 책
내 몸 속에 알 낳는 비둘기 암컷 한 마리
내 몸 속에 종유석이 자라나는 동굴
내 몸 속에 날개 달린 뱀 쌍둥이
내 몸 속에 눈이 퇴화한 동굴 박쥐떼
태어나자마자 늑대 새끼처럼 울음을 터뜨리고
거북처럼 엉금엉금 기기 시작했고
앵무새처럼 종알거렸고
몸 속에 온통 독한 회의와 의문들이
나쁜 암종처럼 출렁거리는 청춘이 왔을 때
나는 비에 젖어 헤매 다녔다
때로 운 나쁜 화물들은
비에 젖은 채 배달되는 법이다
꽃피어나지 못한 채
나는 쓴다
돌에 문자를 새겨 넣듯 고통으로 쓴다
인생이란 무거운 책을
생의 낱장마다 질척거리는 추억들을 새기는 것이다
이것이, 고작 이것이
내게 배달된 화물이란 말인가
어느 겨울날 아침
내게 배달된 화물은 크고 무거웠다
연약한 팔로 감당하기에는 너무나 무거운 화물을 옮기며
불현듯 깨닫는다
잘못 배달되는 화물은 의외로 많은 법이다
A Misdelivered Package
Sometimes, life is a wrongly delivered package
The body is a sealed package
There is an unopened book inside my body
There is an unhatched dove inside my body
A cave inside my body grows stalactites
There are twin snakes with wings inside my body
There is a bat colony with degenerate eyes inside my body
As soon as I was born I fell crying like a wolf cub
Started crawling like a turtle
Prattled like a parrot
In my youth, poisonous questions and doubts
growing inside my body like a bad cancer,
I wandered about sodden with rain.
Sometimes, a bad luck package
is delivered wet.
Unbloomed,
I write
Like carving letters in stone, I write with pain
A heavy book called a life,
Engraving muddy memories on every page
This … this is the best package that can be delivered to me
One winter morning,
A huge and heavy package was delivered.
Barely able to move it with my weak arms,
I suddenly realized
Misdelivered packages are more common than one might think.
시인 장석주 by Poet, Chang, SeokJoo
The poet, Seok-Ju Chang, was born in Non-San, Chung-Cheong-Nam-Do, South Korea, in January 8, 1955. His first published
work was “Midnight” that he received new and emerging poet award from Monthly Literature in 1975. In 1979, he awarded his poem, “Fly, Gloomy Dream” inChosun Il-Bo, Spring Literature and Dong-A-Il-Bo, Spring Literature, Critique, “Existence and Unrealism”.
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Translated by Clara Soonhee Kwon-Tatum, Ph.D and Matthew Lewis, MA
